The Wake Up Call
“Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass – It’s about dancing in the rain.” ~ Vivian Greene
It was early Sunday morning when I received the call from my mom describing a sharp pain that she was feeling down her lower back and throughout her abdomen. Without hesitation, I jumped into my car and drove to her house. When I arrived, her skin was pale white, and my stomach sank to the floor. I knew right away that something was horribly wrong. We sped off to the emergency room where they ran a series of tests and x-rays. She was diagnosed with Stage IV pancreatic cancer and told that she only had three months to live.
“How can this be happening?” was the only thing going through my mind. My entire body felt anesthetized by the news. I wanted to believe that this was all just a bad dream, but I was fully awake and conscious. I wanted to pull the covers up over my head and fall back to sleep – but I had to face this truth with my eyes wide open.
My thoughts were spinning out of control – I just couldn’t stand the thought that I was going to lose my mom to cancer! I started making plea bargains with God to spare her life so I would be saved from the pain and agony of losing her. In that moment, I felt completely ashamed of my own selfishness. I was trying to control an event that I had no power over because I wasn’t ready to give into my own fears of loss. I begged God not to put me through the suffering I was about to face.
My mom remained calm after hearing the news and she assured me that her passing would be the start of a “new beginning.” Deep down in my heart, I understood her inner strength. She had such a deep and unwavering faith, but it was still difficult for me to accept this truth within my own being.
The doctors explained to us that her tumor was so enlarged that no amount of chemotherapy or radiation would aid in her healing. It was too late. The tumor had already taken over her liver and gallbladder. They gave her approximately three months to live, and that’s exactly how long it was until I watched her surrender her last breath of life. In that moment, her physical body came to a quiet hush and her loving spirit returned home to the Eternal Spring.
I was devastated and completely at a loss. How could this have happened and why? I was trying to make sense of it all, but the answers just weren’t coming. I knew deep down in my heart that there is a divine plan for everything, but the sadness and pain I was feeling kept me from realizing this truth. Then, my mother’s words echoed into my thoughts, “It takes strength to live with what we know is true, even when it’s painful, because that’s when we find out who we really are.”
I grieved for the loss of my mom from a lonely place of inward silence. To deal with the sadness, I buried myself deeper and deeper in my work but it was to no avail. I began losing focus, my work began to suffer and my lifeforce energy was slowly dissipating. I was physically, spiritually and emotionally exhausted. I hit bottom.
I knew that I was in trouble and that I needed to make a significant shift in the way that I was living and thinking. My world was being turned upside down, and I had to choose between falling victim to a perpetual state of depression or rising up to meet my Best Self. I kept hearing my mom’s words – “a new beginning” – “a new beginning” playing in the back of my mind like a tape recorder.
It was very clear to me I needed to make a lifestyle change that fostered a healthier way of being in order to reclaim my spirit and my health. It was with the gift of those words from my mother that compelled me to create a new beginning for myself in the field of health and wellness.
I relinquished my corporate job of eighteen years and enrolled in a college where I studied anatomy, physiology, pathology, nutrition, sports medicine, lifestyle coaching and fitness training. It was there (along with my own self-study and research) that I began to fully understand the inner workings of the human body, along with the pancreas and all of its functions.
I learned insulin is the primary metabolic hormone released by the pancreas in response to increased levels of sugar in the blood. I also learned that elevated insulin levels are directly linked to many diseases such as: cancer, mental health, hypertension, diabetes, obesity, high blood pressure, unbalanced hormones, high cholesterol, and many, many more.
In short, elevated insulin levels are primarily the result of an unbalanced diet and poor lifestyle habits, which eventually lead to sickness and disease if not addressed.
When my mom passed, I was given a very specific directive that we can’t take our bodies, our health or our spirits for granted. If we do, we will eventually pay the price somewhere down the road with sickness or disease. This process begins with the desire to shift the way that we are currently living, thinking, eating and moving our bodies on a daily basis.
Today I do what I love by expressing myself through wellness writing, and supporting others to achieve a lifestyle that promotes health, and well-being as a better way of life.
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